Keep Moving. You Have No Choice!
The thing about finding your passion, is once it is found, there is no going back. No matter how scared, unsure, insecure, or doubtful you are, the universe has a way to keep you dedicated to this dream.
I for one have become obsessed with writing. If I were to ask joy what I should do today, it would say to write. Write your book. Write your blog. Just write! And if I ignore this pang that pumps in my heart? That's when the sadness and depression kicks in.
Now, being human, I can honestly say that those thoughts of I'm not worthy pop up. I hear words such as "what makes your messages so worthy that people will read them?" Or, "That was a dumb idea, no body would want to read that!"
In fact one day I was feeling utterly defeated, crying behind my sunglasses as I took a walk on the waterfront in my beautiful town of Portland,Oregon hoping to squash these negative words before they got the best of me. I thought being in nature was a way to connect with my divine self, thereby giving me the strength to keep going.
Then I got a text from a coach friend of mine (who I had not known that well) asking how I was doing. I replied back "TERRIBLE". He then called me and immediately laughed when he heard me crying. Not to be mean, but more to say he COMPLETELY got me, since he too is a writer and aspiring author and had been at that place too!
After this conversation I felt like "me" again and had the courage to keep going and to realize that I am not alone in this place of uncertainty. Especially when we are putting ourselves out there and being vulnerable, we will feel these moments of wobbliness and self doubt.
This conversation with my friend led me to spontaneously go to a writers workshop with Hay House in San Francisco, where New York Times best selling author Doreen Virtue was teaching.
It was here that I realized that even if I feel unworthy, unsure or scared, when we hear our calling, we have NO choice but to keep going. Its like when you go out an exit that has spikes in the road so you can't go back. That is what happens when we realize our passion. We can't go back. All we can do is keep going, trusting the divine has our back.
There are also no accidents in life and everyone you meet and everything you do is part of the divine plan to keep you going. Just today I received an email from a friend who shared a blurb from Wayne Dyers new book and said she thought of me. He talks about how life will magically work out for you, but you need to hear the signs and KEEP going!
The road may not be clear. That's okay. The road may be scary. Of course it can be! But we have to listen. We have to keep moving. The journey may not be easy, but it will all be worth it. I know!