The Art of Allowing
The best part of my life is that I have learned to utilize this knowledge of just letting go, and letting life happen in a more natural and spontaneous way. Now, as a Capricorn, this has not come easy for me. I'm a professed planner and had planned my life up to every detail, including my career, my marriage, my kids. Then divorce smacked me in the face and I realized all that planning backfired. But I was determined still to continue planning even though my first life didn't work out. In fact, soon after my divorce I told my therapist that I was planning on being in another relationship in six months. She looked at me with that motherly look of concern and casually jotting down notes that must have said, this chick needs so much work!
Three years later, I'm still single. So, my plans were foiled yet again. Life tends to hit us in the head many times until we get it. I couldn't give up this crutch of just knowing what my future would hold. I even went as far to see a psychic. She gave me lots of great insight to my future life. Unfortunately I didn't really agree with her advice as she said I would be meeting my partner in two and a half years. I'm a patient woman, but come on... this goes well beyond my six month mark!
Okay, so now I decided to try this Allowing thing. How hard could it be. You just let go, and let life happen. How glorious is that? I equate my experience around this like when I first started meditating. I had so many thoughts, I just couldn't shut my mind off and be mindful. When I first tried to allow things to happen in my life in real time, my mind kept adding suggestions to my subconscious.
I would say, "Okay Michele, just go outside and see where the day takes you." I would happily jump in my car, take a deep breath and then start thinking about who I was going to hang out with on my next day off, which was still days away. The planner in me is obviously a die hard and not willing to let go.
I have come to the point that I think I'm finally getting it. I recently learned this from a very good friend of mine, who has been practicing this stuff for years. Her and I had been planning an event for the Birth 2012 celebration. I had to give up my role in planning due to my time restraints, but she and several others came together and decided to not plan it and just let it happen. You know what? The event was remarkable and it all unfolded with such grace and ease, I finally understood this idea around just allowing.
My New Years resolution is just that, to allow life to happen and not get in my own way. I find living this way is far more exciting and I can't help but feel like the outcome will be much better then if I planned it. The greatest gifts in my life are the experiences I encounter on a daily basis. Every person I meet, from the grocery store to the gas station to my work... they are all blessings.
I encourage you all to try this new way of living. Have faith that EVERYTHING will work out. You only task is to be loving and kind towards others and especially be loving and kind towards yourself. And laugh a little.... or a lot!